Ok, so I am still not coming back quite yet. I am just not ready to mentally come back yet, but I thought everyone who has been waiting on me deserved an update.
So these are the things that are currently keeping me from doing pretty much any online activity, or art in general (not just dA, but really anything):
1. I am graduating high school in a few weeks, so therefor am more stressed than I ever could have imagined. I am so ready to be done, but at the same time the whole thing is freaking me out. I
2. I am going to college next year. It really is blowing my mind right now actually.
3. Aloe goes back to formal training in September, the days I have left with her are numbered.
4. I have to make sure I am all ready for my 2 or so day trip down to Long Island NY to go to the Pitbulls and Parolees tour.
5. I have yet to hear back from a job I applied for.
6. My dog is turning 8 next year, I know it sounds old, but Henry's death made me realize how precious time with my beloved pups really is.
7. My ex-boyfriend (every time I see him) pretends that he did nothing wrong, and is driving me completely crazy.
8. My ex-boyfriend's "gay" (self proclaimed) friend is hitting on me, and doesn't know how to take a hint that I DO NOT want to talk to him right now... or at this point ever again.
9. I have to drive my sister everywhere she asks me to. Which honestly, isn't bothering me much any more.
10. I am expected to volunteer part time at another service dog group with Great Danes.
11. My mom is constantly on my case lately about EVERYTHING.
12. I have been almost completely deprived of any time to hang out with my friends and try to de-stress because of all of the above.
13. I feel like I will never fit in at the college I will be attending (chose to go there based on money and nothing else)
14. I feel fat. (ok stupid one, but I am a girl, and I am trying to be completely honest)
15. I feel like I will go no where in life because I have no idea what I want to do even though I pretend I do.
16. I am tired of holding the mask of completely calm and happy all the time.
I can't think of anything else, but I know there is more. This is not a hunt for pitty at all. In fact, I really don't want anyone's pitty, and I am just using this as another way to vent. I am so tired and stressed all the time. I just want to curl into a little ball like a dog or cat or something, basically say "fuck you" to the world, and fall asleep for three straight weeks.
Ok, I'm done now, and hopefully in a month or so I will be ready to come back on. Thank you so much for everyone that has been so very patient with me, and I want you to know that I do still log in most every day, and do read, and enjoy my comments. I love all my watchers and supporters. You guys have been with me through so much, and I love you all for that <3